"Life belongs to the living, and he who lives must be prepared for changes." Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Well, it has been a very long time since I have written a word. I have been undergoing many changes in my life all at once. The so called "change of life" that a woman goes through, is exactly that, a change of life. Almost everything about me seems different now. I am not sure i really know me any longer.
Menopause, accompanied by the fact that both children left the house the same year to go to graduate school, and the loss of one child, has made me feel and look different. I have been struggling with this change, in fact, I am not very good with change, even though i know it is a fact of life.
I don't seem to be able to gain control of my diet, it is really out of control. I don't want to clean the house regularly, or to do large projects, such as clean out my garage. I don't care about gardening anymore, it seems to be such a chore.
I long to just sit with a good book and a cup of tea, or watch a good movie, or travel.
I am very happy for my daughters. I think they are amazing, wonderful women.
I have a relationship with a loving and caring man, who sees to my every need. We travel together and have wonderful vacations and long weekends. We enjoy operas and eating out and hiking in beautiful locations, and museums.
So why might one as have I felt the need to write today. The answer is I just don't know. I know I have some hurdles to jump, and that i get through each day as it comes.