Sitting around with co-workers with a cup of coffee in hand, the talk turned to school and teachers. Everyone seems to remember every teacher they have ever had. Me, not so much. I can remember 3rd, 5th and 6th grades and various teachers from junior high school ( why yes I am old enough to have gone to junior high school and not middle school) and a few memorable teachers from high school. I hear people say, oh it is because of this teacher that I am at this job or such things. Me not so much. I am not sure that I was greatly influenced by anyone other than my mom and dad.
So yes I enjoyed high school, do I want to relive that part of my life, no. I have so many wonderful memories of life after high school. I don't really do anything in my life conventionally. I was never highly ambitious to be anything special . Ironically, I chose teaching as my profession. It was teaching or being a nurse. After starting college, quitting to marry, way too early in life, having a child and then getting divorced and returning to school, teaching won out over nursing.
Now that my children are grown, and gone from the home, I sometimes get caught up in thinking about the past. Sometimes it makes me sad. Mostly, though I can remember some really fun times with my children with joy and wonder.
I surely cannot change anything in the past, and prefer to think about the present and not so much about the future. I live my life in the present. Happy, sad, contemplative, disgusted, tired but living the present to the fullest. Looking forward to visiting with my children when I am able but carving out a life of my own, which sometimes means doing things alone.
What comes next? I don't know. My life is so different than what I thought it might be after graduating from college, not sure I made the best decisions, but I have enjoyed life and being with the people I love. Even through tough times of loss, I have been able to put things in order and still just have a happy time. What more can anyone ask?
