I am in my usual February funk. I get it every year. I think it may be a multi-faceted funk.
Tax time is rolling around and as usual I am thrown into the worrying of paying the taxes, I try to save the money every year so I don't worry, but alas it never seems to work. And now my paycheck will be getting smaller because even more will be going to the IRS and to the State of Illinois which is in dire straits! So pay raises are frozen, my check is getting smaller, all while I am working to decrease the amount of debt I have!
But I expect that the main reason I get this funk, is that 33 years ago my mom went into the hospital to have a simple procedure on done on her sinus cavities. She was in the hospital for about 2 weeks.
She never came home. My mom was the most delightful person. She had a love for life that was contagious. She mastered the art of mothering, because she gave me the gift of life, living it to the fullest, laughing and just enjoying life. I think I am optimistic, a glass is half full kind of woman, because of her.
I will always be grateful that Regena Daniels was my mom. My delightful son, Ryan is now with my mom again. She never got to know him as an adult here on earth, but I feel they are together now.
I will be glad to be past the first week of March!
